Abigail Visco Rusert, Director
When I spoke with my six-year-old daughter two weeks ago about the murder of George Floyd at the knee of a police officer, she looked at me with a bewildered expression and asked just one, piercing question: “Mommy, why?” My daughter and I are often given space to be bewildered in the face of white supremacy. Which itself is an injustice.
As a Christian, I inherited a missional identity that demands I follow the Holy Spirit into the places where death threatens to have the final word. I inherited a call to stand on the side of a crucified God-of-color for whom justice cost everything.
I am coming to realize that I am complicit in systems of racial injustice. I repent of my silence. I commit to listening to the voices of my siblings of color who are telling the truth about their trauma. I commit to lament alongside my black siblings in Christ. I commit to raising children who know they are white and understand the active anti-racism required of them because of their whiteness. And I commit to the journey of that work in my own life, ministry, and leadership.
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO & LEARNING FROM:
- Rev. Dr. Montague Williams, Associate Professor of Church, Culture, and Society at Point Loma Nazarene University, specifically his forthcoming book, which is available for pre-order here.
- Rev. Dr. Chanequa Walker-Barnes, Associate Professor of Pastoral Care and Counseling at Mercer University School of Theology.
- Rev. Dr. Willie James Jennings, Associate Professor of Systematic Theology and Africana Studies at Yale Divinity School.
John Biewen and Chenjerai Kumanyika of Scene on Radio podcast, especially season 2:Seeing White.
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Megan DeWald, Assistant Director
My earliest memories of experiences with God are profoundly intertwined with my earliest memories of experiences with whiteness. As a four-year old, I would whisper prayers to God before bed, praying to be transformed overnight into a blonde-haired, blue-eyed girl. But each morning, I awoke to the holy disappointment of my brown-haired, brown-eyed, biracial face, second-generation Honduran on my mother’s side and unspecified, freckled white on my dad’s. Even at four-years-old—long before I had read Toni Morrison’s uncanny The Bluest Eye—I had internalized the message that there was something about me that marked me as inferior. To both consciously and unconsciously avoid that pain, I chose to plant myself in my whiteness.
About a decade ago, I faced a reckoning with my biracial identity, as well as my complicity in holding white supremacist beliefs and upholding white supremacist systems. This journey toward both repentance and self-love continues to be strenuous and painful, but it is also the most joyful, faithful, and liberating experience as a wholly beloved child of God.
May we be leaders who insist on celebrating the fullness of the young people in our care. They are already beginning to dance to rhythms of liberation and love. Let’s meet them there.
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO & LEARNING FROM:
- Dr. Christena Cleveland, Founder & Executive Director of the Center for Justice & Renewal.
- Rev. Dr. Jacqui Lewis, Senior Minister for Public Theology & Transformation at Middle Collegiate Church.
- Tricia Hersey, Founder and Nap Bishop of The Nap Ministry.
- Rev. Dr. Pamela Lightsey, Vice President of Academic & Student Affairs and Associate Professor of Constructive Theology at Meadville Lombard Theological School.
Carmelle Beaugelin, Program Coordinator
As a Christian Leader, a black woman, and the daughter of immigrants, the events and injustices leading up to George Floyd’s death at the hands of a police officer are all too familiar to me. There are two pandemics affecting the communities I belong to at alarming and disproportionate rates—Covid-19 and Racism based in white supremacy. I think of Gianna Floyd, George Floyd’s daughter, constantly. A viral video shows Gianna demonstrating a familiar form of black pain mixed with black joy when she exclaims out loud, “Daddy changed the world!” I saw this and wondered to myself, ‘Why is it that her daddy had to initiate the world’s change? Why is it that the sudden rise of global consciousness around the value of black lives had to be initiated by watching on repeat her daddy’s murder at the hands of an officer?’
These are just some of the same theological questions that young people as young as six-year-old Gianna Floyd are asking. Our current moment will—and should—change the shape of our ministries for the foreseeable future. In the meantime, what kind of youth ministers will we be to young people in this new reality? What does it look like for us to do faithful youth ministry alongside Gianna Floyd?
As pastors and youth leaders, we are being called into prophetic witness and holy justice on behalf of the lives of our young people. I am committed to making sure that black young people know that they matter and that they deserve the abundant life that Christ promises, which means making sure I advocate for a society in which they are able to remain alive. As our communities and young people look to us for hope and answers, may we find grace as we lead imperfectly, courage as we face our external and internal fears, and love as we offer ourselves as extensions of Christ’s restorative revolution to our communities.
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO & LEARNING FROM:
- For My Heart: Poetry by Alex Elle.
- For My Soul: Rev. Dr. Neichelle Guidry’s Modern Faith podcast.
For My Mind: The Black Jacobins: Touissant L’Ouverture and the San Domingo Revolutionby C.L.R. James